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i recently lodged a request to have a comment on dA removed that included my 'real world' full name which lead google searchers to my highly personal dA (which i have gone to great pains to keep private from family/friends etc), and now if a potential new employer/potential new colleagues/nosy club kids search my name they'll be led straight to here which is really terrifying to me

my request was declined in a really condescending way and i can't stress how disappointed i am in the team here for not allowing the option to delete comments especially when it provides the capacity/potential for creating dangerous situations - why is that not a thing here? what purpose does that serve?
  • Mood: Fear
the air is cool, crisp
everything is high-definition, high-resolution, 1080p
i can see a thousand shades of mauve and plum filtering through the clouds
a thick greyness sets in across the sky,
wisps of flimsy clouds dissipating slowly
i can see every smudge of velvety charcoal that trails behind them

i'm in mourning
my knees are bent, my neck and shoulders arching forward
staring at the lines in my hands
watching memories in my mind like i pressed fast forward on a VHS tape
nothing takes the breath right out of me
like remembering how happy i once was
  1. How long have you been on DeviantArt?

    That would be 6 years :)

  2. What does your username mean?

    Honestly it's quite embarrassing - I mean, I was 13 when I came up with it. Being socially excluded a lot at the time, I often dreamt about being accepted and even looked up to by those around me. I always dreamt that maybe one day I could walk down the street and people would say, "It's Ellie!" and gasp. I know, very very embarrassing.

  3. Describe yourself in three words.

    Volatile, chaotic, evolving

  4. Are you left or right handed?


  5. What was your first deviation?

    An extremely embarrassing poem titled 'When the world blows up'

  6. What is your favourite type of art to create?

    I feel like I can only say poetry and prose because I'm not very good at other art

  7. If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be?

    Definitely fashion photography

  8. What was your first favourite?

    Oh shoot let me check... Embers of Memory by Sepulchral-Roses

  9. What type of art do you tend to favourite the most?

    Prose/poetry or digital art I suppose

  10. Who is your all-time favourite deviant artist?

    Impossible to choose, at the moment it's saftkeur

  11. If you could meet anyone on DeviantArt in person, who would it be?

    My dA friends from all across the world ^-^ 

  12. How has a fellow deviant impacted your life?

    TheEmptyChest has been a true friend with her amazing support, I could never thank her enough 

  13. What are your preferred tools to create art?

    A notebook, a pen and a cigarette

  14. What is the most inspirational place for you to create art?

    My backyard, when I am sad

  15. What is your favourite DeviantArt memory?

    The letters rachel-rhapsody and I used to write and upload for each other - she got me through my teenage years

    Appreciating dA so much lately :heart:

    #DeviantArtistQuestionnaire !!!

  • Mood: Eager
  • Listening to: Hotline Bling
The clouds are chrome
You smeared the silver across the sky with the pad of your thumb
And the heel of your palm imprinted into the mountainside,
azure reflections of the canal show your eyes blinking heavily back at you
Thick lashes move like swaying tree branches in southerly winds, like my resolve they are velvety yet wiry, and intermingle as your soft lavender lids stretch shut

Fog travels slowly, settles between the mountaintops
You are so cold your breath travels like smoky tendrils escaping from the frosted corners of your timidly parted lips
Limbs like lumber
Arch across my horizon,
If you are a god, I am the land you look over
Your tears are my rainfall,
Your smile my sun
And your eyes my moonlight
My penchant for cheesy love poems is so overdone
thanks to everyone who reads what i post
writing is really important to me

i first joined deviant art when i was 14 and I've uploaded an awful lot of pieces on here
i don't write nearly as much as i used to but i miss it a lot
writing has been my number one way to deal with things for as long as i can remember

it's a great way to process and give reason to my emotions, whether they're rational or not
and i feel like it has been so integral to me making it through all my struggles with mental and emotional difficulties over the past five years
deviantart has been an invaluable safe space for me to express myself without worrying about people telling me that they are fed up with me and can't tolerate me anymore
this website has been able to provide a really secure and trusting environment for me to express my innermost feelings, however pure or impure, however dark or light, and has allowed me to be really fragile
and that's such a beautiful and important thing

the total zero-judgement in this safe space that focuses on the writer (or artist) and their craft is really special and important
thank you to everyone who has contributed to this amazing place, you all inspire me with your gentle souls and care for work that is not even your own, it really is so special

if anyone has anything they want me to read or think i would like, please send me a link and i would absolutely love to


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anobrain Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2014
have missed seeing you around the site, lovely - hope everything is alright x
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oaklungs Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2013
thank you very much for the favourites :rose:
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flightlessheron Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013  Student Writer

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anobrain Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2013
hello, sweetie! you have been featured in my journal.… :heart:
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