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About Literature / Hobbyist ellieFemale/Australia Recent Activity
Deviant for 6 Years
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one thousand eyes
beaming from the clouds
but i am not among them

perforated arteries
diluted lifeforce
you hide in the cracks ;
the hairline fractures that turn
my bones into marble
saw you
hiding by my doorstep
stop stepping on mine stop stepping on
STOP i said

i never found solace in the
sound of your footsteps
anyway you fucking
you fucking

you slid your fingers up my sleeve
is this some kind of practical joke?
get your eyes off me
i can’t walk anymore
i can’t walk here anymore
give me something i can work with
desperation colours you
i’m disgusted by the beauty
you’re twisted
i’m repulsed
but addicted
i recently lodged a request to have a comment on dA removed that included my 'real world' full name which lead google searchers to my highly personal dA (which i have gone to great pains to keep private from family/friends etc), and now if a potential new employer/potential new colleagues/nosy club kids search my name they'll be led straight to here which is really terrifying to me

my request was declined in a really condescending way and i can't stress how disappointed i am in the team here for not allowing the option to delete comments especially when it provides the capacity/potential for creating dangerous situations - why is that not a thing here? what purpose does that serve?
  • Mood: Fear
the air is cool, crisp
everything is high-definition, high-resolution, 1080p
i can see a thousand shades of mauve and plum filtering through the clouds
a thick greyness sets in across the sky,
wisps of flimsy clouds dissipating slowly
i can see every smudge of velvety charcoal that trails behind them

i'm in mourning
my knees are bent, my neck and shoulders arching forward
staring at the lines in my hands
watching memories in my mind like i pressed fast forward on a VHS tape
nothing takes the breath right out of me
like remembering how happy i once was
  1. How long have you been on DeviantArt?

    That would be 6 years :)

  2. What does your username mean?

    Honestly it's quite embarrassing - I mean, I was 13 when I came up with it. Being socially excluded a lot at the time, I often dreamt about being accepted and even looked up to by those around me. I always dreamt that maybe one day I could walk down the street and people would say, "It's Ellie!" and gasp. I know, very very embarrassing.

  3. Describe yourself in three words.

    Volatile, chaotic, evolving

  4. Are you left or right handed?


  5. What was your first deviation?

    An extremely embarrassing poem titled 'When the world blows up'

  6. What is your favourite type of art to create?

    I feel like I can only say poetry and prose because I'm not very good at other art

  7. If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be?

    Definitely fashion photography

  8. What was your first favourite?

    Oh shoot let me check... Embers of Memory by Sepulchral-Roses

  9. What type of art do you tend to favourite the most?

    Prose/poetry or digital art I suppose

  10. Who is your all-time favourite deviant artist?

    Impossible to choose, at the moment it's saftkeur

  11. If you could meet anyone on DeviantArt in person, who would it be?

    My dA friends from all across the world ^-^ 

  12. How has a fellow deviant impacted your life?

    TheEmptyChest has been a true friend with her amazing support, I could never thank her enough 

  13. What are your preferred tools to create art?

    A notebook, a pen and a cigarette

  14. What is the most inspirational place for you to create art?

    My backyard, when I am sad

  15. What is your favourite DeviantArt memory?

    The letters rachel-rhapsody and I used to write and upload for each other - she got me through my teenage years

    Appreciating dA so much lately :heart:

    #DeviantArtistQuestionnaire !!!

  • Mood: Eager
  • Listening to: Hotline Bling


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anobrain Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2014
have missed seeing you around the site, lovely - hope everything is alright x
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oaklungs Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2013
thank you very much for the favourites :rose:
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flightlessheron Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013  Student Writer

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anobrain Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2013
hello, sweetie! you have been featured in my journal.… :heart:
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